XX3: Vulnerable [Voice - backdated to June 8]

[stupidgenes]

[Low voice. Quiet admissions.]

I'm pathetic. All I wanted--needed--was their approval, their acceptance.

Nothing was ever good enough. I'm always... too soft, too weak.

Too worthless.

Meaningless.

All I wanted was to exist.

I just wanted a reason to be alive. But the only reason I found--

[Insert stifled, choked sob here.]

PATHETIC.

[Recorded silence that lasts a few seconds too long. Awkward. /end]

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[stupidgenes.livejournal.com]

That's what I thought, too, before I arrived here. I thought death would be the end.

But it's not the end. I'm here, and I'm still alive... without a reason. Without gaining their approval *OR* acceptance. Worthless.

[greatergone]

My apologies but I am unable to offer you a solution or comforting words.

[stupidgenes.livejournal.com]

It's fine. You don't know what you're doing in a place like this, too.

Maybe there'll be a time we'll know what we're meant to do. But who knows how long it will be until then.

... [Oh yeah. He realizes that he doesn't know who he's talking to.] Who are you, anyway? Are you one of those people who knew the me who was here before?

[greatergone]

No, I do not know you. I am Shas'la Kais, or Kais if you prefer.

[stupidgenes.livejournal.com]

Asch. [He's not a 'pleased to meet you' kinda guy.]

So are you new around here?

[greatergone]

In a relative sense, yes.

[stupidgenes.livejournal.com]

Has anyone already briefed you about the situation here?

[greatergone]

I am fully aware, yes.