Asch the Bloody (
stupidgenes) wrote2011-06-09 05:30 am
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XX3: Vulnerable [Voice - backdated to June 8]
[Low voice. Quiet admissions.]
I'm pathetic. All I wanted--needed--was their approval, their acceptance.
Nothing was ever good enough. I'm always... too soft, too weak.
Too worthless.
Meaningless.
All I wanted was to exist.
I just wanted a reason to be alive. But the only reason I found--
[Insert stifled, choked sob here.]
PATHETIC.
[Recorded silence that lasts a few seconds too long. Awkward. /end]
I'm pathetic. All I wanted--needed--was their approval, their acceptance.
Nothing was ever good enough. I'm always... too soft, too weak.
Too worthless.
Meaningless.
All I wanted was to exist.
I just wanted a reason to be alive. But the only reason I found--
[Insert stifled, choked sob here.]
PATHETIC.
[Recorded silence that lasts a few seconds too long. Awkward. /end]
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[Guy sounds slightly frustrated, but a lot calmer than Asch. He wishes he knew how to teach Asch and Luke the basics of the ego bordering on arrogance they both seem to have forgotten. The feeling that they have the right to live, that they don't need permission to exist.]
[The idea of needing outside confirmation for a meaningful existence really bothers him.]
Isn't just living a good start? You won't figure anything out just following other people's ideas. Isn't living and making your own judgments important enough to exist for?
It's not like every purpose has to be--it shouldn't be--written in stone, summed up clearly. That's just the same as living by the Score.